I could hear the muffled sobs of my friends and family through the closed wooden door that kept us apart.
Dont Cry. I tried to tell them, but my mouth wouldn't move. I'm not dead I promise! I knew that, but they didn't. Everyone else thought my soul had departed itself from my body and made its way to a new place, but I knew differently. I knew were it really was, the truth. It was still tucked away inside my body, the same place it had been for the past fifteen years of my life. My body, on the other had, was somewhere it had never been before. I was being forced to attend my own funeral, but my heart was still beating. In fact, the longer I laid in that coffin, the harder it began to beat agains the walls of my chest.
"Not my baby! She was to young to die!" I wasn't dead! What about this did they not understand?
"It's ok. She's in a better place now."
No Dad, I'm not! I"m still here, right in front of you! Would he miss me? Would anyone miss me?
I felt a tear roll down my cheek. Maybe someone would see that I was crying! Maybe they'll realize that I'm alive!
No such luck. NO one noticed. I tried to move my arms, even just a little, but nothing happened. I tried to say something but only I could hear it.
Please! Help me! I screamed, but only I could hear it.
My coffin started to move. They were putting me in the ground.
Again, I focused all of my energy on opening my mouth. It didn't work, I was doomed! I was going to be trapped, six feet under thousands of pounds of dirt, grass, and all things living. There was nothing I could do now, but I wouldn't give up. Soon it was going to be to late but I refused to die without putting up a fight.
They were lowering me down now. My chances were almost up. I was terrified. Sad visions of death flashed through my head. I shuttered at the horrible thought of being stuck here in my own personal dungeon-like coffin.
I felt myself hit the ground. An avalanche of dirt fell upon me like snow off a mountain in the middle of winter. I laid there, silently, for what seemed like eternity. Gradually, oh so gradually, I was finally able to move my body. I clawed with utter desperation, trying to escape.
"Help me! Help!" I screamed. "I'm alive! Can anyone hear me?" I knew they couldn't. My voice echoed against the sullen walls of the box that contained me. I laid down my head in surrender. It was over. I was over. This is where I would lay, from now through eternity.
Friday, December 2, 2011
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Heart Break Love
***NOTE: THIS IS JUST A LITTLE STORY I WROTE. HOPE YOU LIKE IT!! :)***
She loved him. She had loved him her whole life. He was on her mind where ever she went. They were together most of the time, but when they wernen't, he was still in her head. No matter where she was, he was always there. Just like a song that wouldn't quit playing. Nothing he could do would ever make her stop loving him, but it might make it impossible. He made her feel valuable, he made her feel happy. No amount of time she could spend with him would ever be enough, not even forever. But it didn't last forever. SHe knew things would never be the same. Not between them, and certainly not for herself. He was a big part of who she was and without him, she would never be whole. She hadn't the foggiest idea of how to live her life without him. Was it even possible? She was broken and torn, not sure ho to be happy if he wasn't in her life. She'd force a smile on her face even though it hurt, because a sad smile was better than no smile at all.
He loved her. He always would just like he always had. He'd known her for as long as he could remember, and she meant the world to him. More than anyone else he'd ever known. She had always done everything with him, given him the chance to live on the edge. With her he shared the best times of his life. She was the one that knew him better than anyone, just as well as he knew his own self. She had turned him into the man that he was just by loving him the only way she knew how. By keeping his secret, he knew that she was hurting and, in return, it broke his heart. He hated to see her in pain, and he couldn't stand that the reason was him. Guilt tore through his body like a fire burning in the forest. He knew his life would never be the same without her in it. He was forever broken, unmendable. He knew by ending it, he was doing the right thing despite the pain it forcedhim.
Three years later, she found herself in her junior year of college. The initial sting of losing him hadn't disappeared, but turned into a never ending ache. She kept the smile on her face, determined to be strong but never willing to forget the boy she had once loved. Still loved. She would never know the truth. All she could do was hope and pray that one day maybe, just maybe, her knight and shining armor would come looking for her once again.
He never imagined that this much later in his life he would still find her in his dreams as he lay asleep in bed at night. Just as he predicted, his life had not been the same without her. When she left, she took a big part of him that he wasn't sure he could ever get back. At times, he tried to deny it. He went as far as to try to hate her even though it was him that did wrong, but of course, it didnt work. No matter how hard he tried, his love for her would never fade. He culdn't take it any longer. He picked up his phone and ddialed her number. His stomach twisted and turned with every ring, but after what seemed like eternity, he heard silence, followed by a familiar "Hello?"
She loved him. She had loved him her whole life. He was on her mind where ever she went. They were together most of the time, but when they wernen't, he was still in her head. No matter where she was, he was always there. Just like a song that wouldn't quit playing. Nothing he could do would ever make her stop loving him, but it might make it impossible. He made her feel valuable, he made her feel happy. No amount of time she could spend with him would ever be enough, not even forever. But it didn't last forever. SHe knew things would never be the same. Not between them, and certainly not for herself. He was a big part of who she was and without him, she would never be whole. She hadn't the foggiest idea of how to live her life without him. Was it even possible? She was broken and torn, not sure ho to be happy if he wasn't in her life. She'd force a smile on her face even though it hurt, because a sad smile was better than no smile at all.
He loved her. He always would just like he always had. He'd known her for as long as he could remember, and she meant the world to him. More than anyone else he'd ever known. She had always done everything with him, given him the chance to live on the edge. With her he shared the best times of his life. She was the one that knew him better than anyone, just as well as he knew his own self. She had turned him into the man that he was just by loving him the only way she knew how. By keeping his secret, he knew that she was hurting and, in return, it broke his heart. He hated to see her in pain, and he couldn't stand that the reason was him. Guilt tore through his body like a fire burning in the forest. He knew his life would never be the same without her in it. He was forever broken, unmendable. He knew by ending it, he was doing the right thing despite the pain it forcedhim.
Three years later, she found herself in her junior year of college. The initial sting of losing him hadn't disappeared, but turned into a never ending ache. She kept the smile on her face, determined to be strong but never willing to forget the boy she had once loved. Still loved. She would never know the truth. All she could do was hope and pray that one day maybe, just maybe, her knight and shining armor would come looking for her once again.
He never imagined that this much later in his life he would still find her in his dreams as he lay asleep in bed at night. Just as he predicted, his life had not been the same without her. When she left, she took a big part of him that he wasn't sure he could ever get back. At times, he tried to deny it. He went as far as to try to hate her even though it was him that did wrong, but of course, it didnt work. No matter how hard he tried, his love for her would never fade. He culdn't take it any longer. He picked up his phone and ddialed her number. His stomach twisted and turned with every ring, but after what seemed like eternity, he heard silence, followed by a familiar "Hello?"
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Be Yourself. Everyone Else is Already Taken.
Love yourself. That's one of the most important rules of life. If you dont love yourself, then you wont be able to know yourself and if you don't know yourself, then neither can anybody else. Be who you are inside because if you tried to be someone else your life would be a lie and you would never have the chance to be as happy as you possibly could be. It would be hard to fall in love with someone else if you didnt already love yourself because how could you expect someone else to love you if even you couldn't? God made you just the way he wanted to. That in itself makes you beautiful. Just remember this next time you look in the mirror and feel like your ugly or wish you looked like someone else. If God wanted you to be another way, then that's how he would have made you. But instead, he made you YOU! Embrace it, love it, because there is no one else like you. If you know you're beautiful, so will everyone else. Be the best you you can be. Stand up for what you believe and say what you think. Love yourself, be yourself, define youself.
Unperfect...
"I'm not a perfect girl. My hair doesnt always stay in one place, and I spill things a lot. I'm pretty clumsy, and sometimes I have a broken heart. My friends and I fight and maybe some days, nothing goes right. But when I think about it and take a step back, maybe, just maybe, I like being UNPERFECT.."
Story of my life. I'm not perfect by any means, nor do I want to be. Imagine how boring life would be if we did everything right all the time? I mean, the idea sounds great and all, but really if you think about it, I would be pretty suckish. Everyone would always over-rely on you because they would know you would do things right. Helping people is wonderful, dont get me wrong. But the stress of everyone expecting nothing less than the very best of everything would be extremely tough. Besides, if you never made any mistakes and nothing ever went wrong, then the chances of you being close to God is pretty slim. You would probably forget to think him for the things you have because everything would be wonderful all the time. You would have no reason to ask for his help, or for forgivness for that matter. That's a big part of forming a relationship with the Lord. I supposse part of being perfect would also include being a perfect christian, but it would be hard if everything went right all the time. Besides that, the excitement of not knowing if everything will be ok keeps life interesting. Let's face it, most of the time things end up just fine anyway but being unperfect is part of what makes life so wonderful! If you mess up, it's ok because as a wise man once said "Plenty of thing's are mistakes, but some mistakes are like seeds and they grow into purposes."
Story of my life. I'm not perfect by any means, nor do I want to be. Imagine how boring life would be if we did everything right all the time? I mean, the idea sounds great and all, but really if you think about it, I would be pretty suckish. Everyone would always over-rely on you because they would know you would do things right. Helping people is wonderful, dont get me wrong. But the stress of everyone expecting nothing less than the very best of everything would be extremely tough. Besides, if you never made any mistakes and nothing ever went wrong, then the chances of you being close to God is pretty slim. You would probably forget to think him for the things you have because everything would be wonderful all the time. You would have no reason to ask for his help, or for forgivness for that matter. That's a big part of forming a relationship with the Lord. I supposse part of being perfect would also include being a perfect christian, but it would be hard if everything went right all the time. Besides that, the excitement of not knowing if everything will be ok keeps life interesting. Let's face it, most of the time things end up just fine anyway but being unperfect is part of what makes life so wonderful! If you mess up, it's ok because as a wise man once said "Plenty of thing's are mistakes, but some mistakes are like seeds and they grow into purposes."
Monday, November 14, 2011
ROFL!!! :D
  BAHAHA!!!  I don't know about you guys, but this happens to me all the time. Sad day :'(  Haha!! Soooo true! Typical boy :P  |
I stubled across this website yesterday...ragestache.com...It's my official new favorite :-D This picture above is one that I downloaded from there. They crack me up!! |
Sunday, November 6, 2011
"Oh, The Places You'll Go!"
"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. Your on your own and you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where you go."
This is yet another quote by Dr. Seuss from his book, "Oh, the Places You'll Go!". His words always inspire me. This quote reminds me of what my parents used to tell me when I was younger. "If your friends jump off the side of the cliff, would you jump to?" Sometimes I wanted to say I would, just to be difficult. I dread growing up and getting out on my own, but this quote reassures me. I do have brains in my head, and I obviously have feet in my shoes. I have the capability of steering myself in any direction I choose. When I get on my own, I will still have the knowledge that I already know so I will be just fine. Sometimes, you may be tempted by other people to take a path in life that you know will only eventually lead to a dead end. You don't have to choose that path just because that's where people are telling you to go. Ultimately, you are the one who decides your where you end up. If you keep this in mind, you will make sure to end up where you desire instead of someplace that will lead to no good. It's your life, live it your way!
This is yet another quote by Dr. Seuss from his book, "Oh, the Places You'll Go!". His words always inspire me. This quote reminds me of what my parents used to tell me when I was younger. "If your friends jump off the side of the cliff, would you jump to?" Sometimes I wanted to say I would, just to be difficult. I dread growing up and getting out on my own, but this quote reassures me. I do have brains in my head, and I obviously have feet in my shoes. I have the capability of steering myself in any direction I choose. When I get on my own, I will still have the knowledge that I already know so I will be just fine. Sometimes, you may be tempted by other people to take a path in life that you know will only eventually lead to a dead end. You don't have to choose that path just because that's where people are telling you to go. Ultimately, you are the one who decides your where you end up. If you keep this in mind, you will make sure to end up where you desire instead of someplace that will lead to no good. It's your life, live it your way!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Good Apples
Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enoughto climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.
I stumbled across this quote a couple of months ago, and found it quite true. I had never thought about love that way, but being a teenage girl in highschool, it makes perfect sense. All of the boys go for the gorgeous, flirtatious girls that are easy to get...just like the apples at the bottom of the tree. They dont want to work very hard for good girls that they, deep down inside, know that they truly want because they are afraid that they might fall and get bruised. The thought of this scares them, that's why they go for what is easily obtainable to them already. Because of this, the girls at the "top of the tree" feel like they arent good enough or special enough to be loved by any of these boys. What they (well, I guess I should say we) dont understand is that just because they dont feel like they are noticed, they are...and they are just as good as the apples on the bottom. When the right guy is willing to come along and climb all the way up to the top of the tree for you, that's when you realize that all of your time spent waiting and staying true to your values at the top was well worth it.
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enoughto climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.
I stumbled across this quote a couple of months ago, and found it quite true. I had never thought about love that way, but being a teenage girl in highschool, it makes perfect sense. All of the boys go for the gorgeous, flirtatious girls that are easy to get...just like the apples at the bottom of the tree. They dont want to work very hard for good girls that they, deep down inside, know that they truly want because they are afraid that they might fall and get bruised. The thought of this scares them, that's why they go for what is easily obtainable to them already. Because of this, the girls at the "top of the tree" feel like they arent good enough or special enough to be loved by any of these boys. What they (well, I guess I should say we) dont understand is that just because they dont feel like they are noticed, they are...and they are just as good as the apples on the bottom. When the right guy is willing to come along and climb all the way up to the top of the tree for you, that's when you realize that all of your time spent waiting and staying true to your values at the top was well worth it.
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