Passionate Regret

 A dazzeling glare
     From the white sand
            even on breathless days
                  A fat freckled boy
                         With the star
                             That seemed
                     To perch upon the tip
                              Of his finger
                          Filled with
                  Passionate regret

This was a poem I wrote for english class yesterday. We have been reading "Enchanted Bluff" by Willa Cather lately and our asignment was to write a poem out of only words we found in the story. I thought it would be difficult but I actually finished within five minutes. I really liked this asignment so I thought I would share :)

My 4th Wish...

    My fourth wish is something I've thought long and hard about. I've discussed this with my friends and they all tell me I'm insane and slightly creepy, but I've got it all planed out...I want to marry Bruno Mars.
   I would ask Adele to be my bride's maid, and since she's originally British, we would have our wedding in Britain to honor her. Because I don't think there are any oceans in Britain, (don't worry, I'm not stupid...I know the Gulf of Mexico is there and that is very clearly an ocean [Ok, I'm just kidding. Don't go calling the nut house to come pick me up or anything uncalled for because I've already had that experience and believe me, its not fun. Alright, I've never had that experience but it sounded cool right?]) we will just get married by a huge lake at sunset. Taylor Swift will also be one of my bride's maids, along with Colbie Caillat and my cousin, Ava. Adam Levine will be Bruno's best man, and standing next to him will be my brother, Schuyler. Cee Lo Green is going to be the generous man to permanately bring our tightly bonded love together untill death do us part (a.k.a. our preacher).
    During our reception, Bruno, Taylor, Adele, and I will preform a mini concert on a roof-covered dock for our guests. Everyone will cheer us on and afterwards, we will all dance to loud music and have a good time. I will then, for the rest of my life, live together with Bruno Mars in the beautiful Mars mansion.

Sounds practical, huh?

My 3rd Wish...

       Can anyone guess what my third wish could be? Eh, probably not...I'm a confusing person lol :) My third wish would be to  gain the power of invisibility.  Think of all the things you could do! Life would be turned into an endless ride of power and fun. Why power you ask? Well, just think about it. You would have the power to do whatever whenever you wanted, not to mention actually having power over people. Not that I would really want to have power over any human being, but the choice of doing so would always be there. Now, I know you are wondering how in the world you could controll someone when they couldn't see you, right? Well, the answer is simple. It would actually be easier to controll someone if you wern't able to be seen. Not that I would know this from personal experience of course, just commen sense. You could move things around and make sounds, and everyone would think you were a ghost, therefore causing them to do things for  you out of pure fear. I wouldn't want to controll people by fear, but there would definitely be some other things I would do. Scaring people would certainly be at the top of my list. I would walk around different class rooms in my school and go up to some random person and whisper something in their ear only loud enough for them to hear. They would look around and realize that no one else heard my voice. I would then ask them a question in which they would answer, causing everyone else to think that the person was going crazy. I might even follow them around all day doing that...Wouldn't it be hillarious???? Ok...now that I think about it, that wouldn't exactly be very scary, but it sure would make me laugh!! :P

Why, Hello there!! =D

       So, right now I am sitting in my fourth hour multi-media class and I am bored out of my mind. As I was surfing the internet, I mysteriously stumbled upon my blog and thought, "Hey, why not."


      I was reading over some of my recent posts and realized that it's starting to sound a little preachy, which I dont want at all. When I find a quote that I like, I feel the need to back it up. I'm mostly trying to explain it to myself while I'm typing, so I pitty, yet greatly appreciate, anyone who is  reading this.


      If you're wondering how I'm having time to blog during class, the answer is simple. We are leaning all about how to make power point presentations, which I learned how to do years ago in elementry school. It's super easy so I skipped ahead and got everything done. Boy, do I love this class :) There's nothing better than an easy A!!

Imperfection is Individuality

         "The biggest challenge in life is to be yourself in a world that is trying to make you like everyone else." --Unknown

      I'm sure you've had someone tell you sometime in your life to just be yourself. I dont want to sound cliche or anything, but I've recently found out how important being yourself is and I would love to share my knowledge with anyone who is reading this. The modern world is about making everyone "normal." But what really is "normal?" Does anyone even know? No. We don't. Some people think that if you're not like everyone else, then that makes you a freak. Does it? Of corse not! It's indeed one of the dumbest things I have ever heard.

          "Be whoever you want to be. People are going to judge you no matter what you do." --Unknown

Have you ever noticed that when you try to be like someone else because they are "popular" or "cool" or what not? How did that work for you? Not very well I presume. From personal experience, I know that people tend to like you less when you try to act like someone else other then yourself. Let's face it, people are going to judge you no matter what. since you are getting judged either way, why not be yourself? It's so much easier and, not to mention, fun. When you are trying so hard to be something your not, you end up focusing all of your energy into that instead of living your life to the fullest and having fun. What's the point of living if you cant have fun doing it? It doesn't matter what other people think of you. The only thing that matters is what you think of yourself because if you aren't in love with yourself, then you can never learn to love anyone else and life without love is no life at all. As I quoted the first time, its really hard to be yourself in a world that is trying to turn you into someone else, but chalenges are always fun. Why not give it a try?

Scary Timing

         Have you ever truly thought about the meaning of time, or just time in general? It's a scary thing. At one moment, you can be having a great time and then POOF!! it's over and you find yourself laying on your bed at night wondering how that could have possibly gone by that quick.
   I used to be the kind of person that would look forward to something so much that it was all I could think about, but now, I'm trying really hard not to do that, though often I still struggle. It's no use to think about the future so much that you spend all of your time wishing that day would come sooner because when it finally does come, it happens way to fast and before you know it, the thing that has completely occupied your mind for the past month is already over. What's the point in wasting your life looking forward to something that goes by so fast? I finally understand why people always used to tell me, "Don't wish your life away." If you spend all  your time wishing for something to happen, then you don't get to live the life you have right now at this very moment.
     The thought of getting old scares me, and though I'm only fifteen, it seems like its comming quick. In three years, I'll graduate high school. After that, college, and then who knows what. My life has gone by so fast already. I remember just starting kindergarten. The thought of ever not being in school seemed impossible. Now, in all reality, its almost over and it all happened so fast. Time is a scary thing, probably my biggest fear actually. If you really think about it, its petrifing. Every word you say, after it has come out of your mouth is history. Every movement you make, as soon as you make it, is already history. It's in the past. Every breath you breathe, every step you take, every sound you make, is history as soon as it happens. What's even more scarry is thinking about the future, like I said before, it comes and goes in the snap of a finger and there is absoutely nothing you can do about it. Sure is freaky, huh?

My 2nd Wish

I'm sitting in the wating room at a hospital waiting for my mom to go into surgery. She is getting breast reconstruction for the fifth time. There has been so many complications that it has reqirued multiple surgeries to get it right.
My mom had breast cancer about five years ago. Luckily, they found it early so ut was easy to treat. If wishes came true, I would wish that my mom never had cancer so she wouldn't have to go through all of the pain that it has caused her.